Giving a name to it

So I've read the instructions on how to go about this experiment and I think that I'm going to try it.

My first fear/anxiety is that everyone will think I'm illiterate
When I mess up on one word or if I can get my point across fast enough or If i can't say what I was thinking of, Also I feel like when I say something, that's it's not truly thought out because if the teacher counters with a question I'm usually stuck on how to answer it and I didn't think of the possible questions that she would ask. That's one and a half of reason why I don't really participate in huge group discussions because I feel as if there are expectations already made when someone get's called on.

Second fear: Probably standing alone

Like the other day when we had class, everyone loved the book so much and said such great things about it while I sat there just hating the book and not really saying it. Like I understand that everyone has a different view of things but it's pretty awkward disagreeing with the whole class, plus I guess I'm not a big fan of controversy. With what I believe in is different though because I don't really care if I stand alone or not because It's what I'm passionate about and what I truly believe.

Those are my main two fears/anxieties as to why I don't voice my opinion very often, Hopefully I will learn to get over them or at least face them, Maybe I have to start writing down my thoughts before I say them so I can have some materialistic to look to when I forget a main point in my thoughts or just suck it up. I've tried ignoring my fears but that doesn't really help when they just appear back in your thoughts, haunting you while you speak aloud.

Burning calories by just reading!

Okay, Well I lied in my title but since you're already here why not stay and continue reading!

This campus safari was about visiting the fitness center!  I'm not a member because I don't feel like I need to work out, yet. But for those who want to become a member you just have to walk in and ask to join, or even join online! I believe it's about 120$ for a full year membership and only 60 $ (orginally) for a semester. They have treadmills there, some zumba classes at certain nights and other fun exercise events. There is a dress code though, so make sure you fully understand the rules before you enter the center.

Hours is it open, (throughout the year)

Monday-Thursday      7:00 am-10:00 pm

Friday                       7:00 am-8:00 pm

Saturday                   9:30 am-4:30 pm

Sunday                     2:00 pm-7:00 pm

(Had to get this picture off the website because they had to ask their supervisors, which weren't available on Friday. -__-)

Thoughts about Twyla Tharp book

Currently, In our inquiry class we are required to read a book called the "creative habit" by Twyla Tharp, such a odd name.
I'd have to say that even though the book font is not really attractive to me, she is relatable in some ways. It's a huge turn off how the book Was displayed because I want the book to get straight to the point and now have to read all around the pages just to read the title and it seems like childish, the fonts she played with. Im a close minded person, ill admit, i like the simple normal way of trying to get your point across, even if it is boring. Most students like the way she presented it and Im not like most kids, I don't need words to be emphasized in the color red to be known as important. -_- i dont feel like i relate that much to her personal life though, I never had the need for any creative outlet, or any creative spark in my body so i cant really understand how hard it is to make up a routine or start a painting from scratch or even try to create some beautiful besides my failed drawings of stick people I use to create in the 6th grade, (yes I said 6th grade.) Besides that I sorta like how she talks about things that I can relate to as a reader and a college student. I guess because I'm not a interpretative person that I didn't get some metaphors that she mentioned. Also I am pretty biased about creativity ad how irrelevant it is to my life, academic wise so the story is pretty boring. I've heard what she says one way or another from other perspectives.

I'm a Creep, Halloween Edition. ~Le video

I think my video was okay overall, it could have been better.

-_- WHAT?

Finally the train wreck of midterm week is over, so much anixety and terror was built up during the suspense of each test. Okay so midterms was harder than I thought in most classes, overall my GPA would be a C which is practically unacceptable since I want to be on the Dean's list. I believe to be on the Dean's list you have to have at least a GPA of 3.5, unless it's different standards for different colleges. My grades other than math, is what I expected because I studied a lot and revised my papers, trying to perfect them and also i understood and anaylzed the materials very well. But I wish i would have gotten just a plain B instead of tons of B minuses those minuses bring my GPA down even more, grr! >.< With Math I'm not surprised with my grade, I suck at math but regardless, I didn't study because I thought I understood it, but in reality I didn't and that is why I failed. :( I hope to have brought my grade up with the past test we took on Thursday, I really studied really hard and I learned math, from a different easy angle. It's just when people explain it I don't really get it until I actually do a problem and read how to go about it, for each step. I can't just learn from looking at examples and explanations, I guess I have to read it.I wish midterms did count toward our GPA though because it would be really easy to get it up higher, now i have to depend on the final exams for my GPA. Oh geez.I just really hope that next semester will be a breeze so I could go and be a sophomore already! :D

Walking fast, Faces Past.

This is the first half of the huge mural.
 

The rest of it.
 

This mural is painted by Nicholas Orsini, in 1986. He was a professor of art at scsu.
According to the plank, "This mural represents stages in human development from left to right. The emergence of life from the sea, the discovery of microbiology, the exploration of space and botanical & biological forms depicted are true representations of actual forms." It's in Jennings Hall.

Yes, I did pick the most noticable art piece in SCSU. I don't really notice art but I do remember seeing this when we went on a mini tour in Jenings, when it was orientation, to show us where our future classes would be. Now me, I havent been the artsy type and try to look deeper into pictures, to me this picture is people scubadiving under water either, discovering or fighting plenty of fungi and coral trees, and etc. I like actually like the picture though because it captures your attention as soon as you pass by, just with astounding colors. Now personally yet again, I dont really see stages of human development. Stages of human development are related to embryos to babies to infants and so on and so forth, now I don't really see any sort of  human babies in this pictures, maybe a hermit crab or something but it doesn't really have a correlation to the sea life. This is why I don't like art very much, everything tries to be so complicated when it is simple. -___-
 Since my views on art are pretty biased I don't really understand the purpose of this painting, sure it's a great contriubution to Jennings, the Science & Art classes but i would love to meet someone that says this painting helps me get through the day. If i say so myself, this picture is pretty creepy if you keep staring at it long enough!

Many Possiblites

This week's campus Safari is the Major Expo, because i finally found the papers that I have received from it. The expo wasn't very informative to me because I already knew most of the jobs that I could get with for my major, which is Biology. I believe that the expo was for mainly undecided/undeclared freshman that wanted to see all the choices they could have in whatever field interested them. The Expo even had information about the colleges that have a partnership with Southern for their study abroad program, they have student exchange programs, colleges in Franc, Germany, Scotland, Spain and others! Going back to my major, we even have a Biology club! That sadly I can't join because of work. There are many fields of biology I could go into, Basic, Applied, Quality Control, Administration, Grant Writing, Organismal Biology, biomedical sciences, healthcare, bioinformatics,education, communication, legislation/law and Business/Industry. The fields that interest me Healthcare because then I can concentrate on Veterinary Medicine. I would actually major in Pre-Vet but then again I just want to keep my options open even though I know I'm probably not going to change my mind, just in case that is. So if i get a Biology degree and I want to explore other careers in the science field I can because my degree isn't just directly for Pre-Vet. Then I have to hopefully get into med school, take that entry test and hopefully pass, it's a long journey but I have to keep looking at how happy I'll be when I am finally there, either owning my own hospital or helping another doctor. I'm usually lazy when it comes to work but hopefully I'll push myself into gear but then if I don't get into med school because its very competitive, I'll probably just go into a trade school and just become a vet assistant.

(this campus safari is for 10/27/12)