I'm a Creep, Halloween Edition. ~Le video

I think my video was okay overall, it could have been better.

-_- WHAT?

Finally the train wreck of midterm week is over, so much anixety and terror was built up during the suspense of each test. Okay so midterms was harder than I thought in most classes, overall my GPA would be a C which is practically unacceptable since I want to be on the Dean's list. I believe to be on the Dean's list you have to have at least a GPA of 3.5, unless it's different standards for different colleges. My grades other than math, is what I expected because I studied a lot and revised my papers, trying to perfect them and also i understood and anaylzed the materials very well. But I wish i would have gotten just a plain B instead of tons of B minuses those minuses bring my GPA down even more, grr! >.< With Math I'm not surprised with my grade, I suck at math but regardless, I didn't study because I thought I understood it, but in reality I didn't and that is why I failed. :( I hope to have brought my grade up with the past test we took on Thursday, I really studied really hard and I learned math, from a different easy angle. It's just when people explain it I don't really get it until I actually do a problem and read how to go about it, for each step. I can't just learn from looking at examples and explanations, I guess I have to read it.I wish midterms did count toward our GPA though because it would be really easy to get it up higher, now i have to depend on the final exams for my GPA. Oh geez.I just really hope that next semester will be a breeze so I could go and be a sophomore already! :D

Walking fast, Faces Past.

This is the first half of the huge mural.
 

The rest of it.
 

This mural is painted by Nicholas Orsini, in 1986. He was a professor of art at scsu.
According to the plank, "This mural represents stages in human development from left to right. The emergence of life from the sea, the discovery of microbiology, the exploration of space and botanical & biological forms depicted are true representations of actual forms." It's in Jennings Hall.

Yes, I did pick the most noticable art piece in SCSU. I don't really notice art but I do remember seeing this when we went on a mini tour in Jenings, when it was orientation, to show us where our future classes would be. Now me, I havent been the artsy type and try to look deeper into pictures, to me this picture is people scubadiving under water either, discovering or fighting plenty of fungi and coral trees, and etc. I like actually like the picture though because it captures your attention as soon as you pass by, just with astounding colors. Now personally yet again, I dont really see stages of human development. Stages of human development are related to embryos to babies to infants and so on and so forth, now I don't really see any sort of  human babies in this pictures, maybe a hermit crab or something but it doesn't really have a correlation to the sea life. This is why I don't like art very much, everything tries to be so complicated when it is simple. -___-
 Since my views on art are pretty biased I don't really understand the purpose of this painting, sure it's a great contriubution to Jennings, the Science & Art classes but i would love to meet someone that says this painting helps me get through the day. If i say so myself, this picture is pretty creepy if you keep staring at it long enough!

Many Possiblites

This week's campus Safari is the Major Expo, because i finally found the papers that I have received from it. The expo wasn't very informative to me because I already knew most of the jobs that I could get with for my major, which is Biology. I believe that the expo was for mainly undecided/undeclared freshman that wanted to see all the choices they could have in whatever field interested them. The Expo even had information about the colleges that have a partnership with Southern for their study abroad program, they have student exchange programs, colleges in Franc, Germany, Scotland, Spain and others! Going back to my major, we even have a Biology club! That sadly I can't join because of work. There are many fields of biology I could go into, Basic, Applied, Quality Control, Administration, Grant Writing, Organismal Biology, biomedical sciences, healthcare, bioinformatics,education, communication, legislation/law and Business/Industry. The fields that interest me Healthcare because then I can concentrate on Veterinary Medicine. I would actually major in Pre-Vet but then again I just want to keep my options open even though I know I'm probably not going to change my mind, just in case that is. So if i get a Biology degree and I want to explore other careers in the science field I can because my degree isn't just directly for Pre-Vet. Then I have to hopefully get into med school, take that entry test and hopefully pass, it's a long journey but I have to keep looking at how happy I'll be when I am finally there, either owning my own hospital or helping another doctor. I'm usually lazy when it comes to work but hopefully I'll push myself into gear but then if I don't get into med school because its very competitive, I'll probably just go into a trade school and just become a vet assistant.

(this campus safari is for 10/27/12)

More Tea?

It was rather windy today, almost as windy yesterday. I wish the weather was sunnier but it is Autumn, so I guess not much we can do about it. Today, my friend Xiao and I decided to explore downtown, because its so interesting. Despite the limitation of time because of my job and her classes we had fun. First we took the bus, arriving at the green and walked around. Our intentions were to buy some bubble tea, but from a different restaurant and also try to buy the tea with gelatin in it. We saw a cute puppy Golden Retriever tagged along with a guy, surprisingly a cute guy ;). We were downtown pretty early like 8ish 9ish and nothing was open so we our mission was clarified as a F, so we just went to Dunkin donuts and got the usual for Taiesha, Hashbrowns, egg and cheese with an iced latte. Surprise, Surprise that they were open. After spending about a hour there we walked around again, retrieving my new head phones from radio shack, i was getting frustrated because they didn't have many cute choices and they were not helping. Some guy was like bowing to us and said "all hail beautiful people" Xiao and I was like WTF. Then another guy asked a question and I was confused cause I didn't know what he said and he got mad. Then this girl had a weird tattoo, but she was gorgeous ;) so that was a ware of like 100 or more bucks. Eventually we found ourselves back to "the green" then headed back to Southern. Luckily I was just in time, after speed walking through crowds of students and almost tripping over everything I made it to the shuttle stop near Morrill just before 11. Then started my last 2 hrs of daily commuting for today.

Alzheimer's? I think so

With this semester I feel like what has set me back the most was remembering things, I try to rely on my memory for what homework I have to get done but that doesn't always work out.So far in English my writing has actually increased which is not really that surprising cause I like English as am fairly good at it. :) math on the other hand I'm slowly but surely getting better at it, math is my worst subject but I now understand where I made most of my errors so I could see what went wrong. With my nanotechnology class it's fairly interesting but hard to comprehend after a while. He's been studying nano materials and just assumes we know all the jargon that comes along with it. We had to do like a essay so far where I had to google almost a more simplified definition for half the words I was looking up. I was thinking of probably taking another physics class next semester but that's crossed off my list. Philosophy is a pretty fast paced class also, it reminds me of my psych class, hopefully i will do wonders on his exam. Its not that the class sucks its just very fast and sometimes after i leave class im like, what did i just learn. Next semester I will have to put more strict boundaries on myself, especially will friends and homework and keeping all my syllabus visible. Definitely keep my schedule in my hands at all times. Next semesters I will probably have classes early and late but usually late because it'll be better for my sleeping schedule and ill be able to function better. Next semester I just also want to get my GPA up to the highest point and finish all my math within the next two years because math is confusing and annoying.

Agree to Disagree.

Dreading to read this book, but when i did I read about success and failures, things not to say and things to encourage of course I disagreed with some points but overall I think she was trying to get a good point. I think that our generation or just me, (mostly me because i question most things if im proven wrong) I don't really get the concept of the book because its usually about something we already experience and currently in our mindset. Maybe this will be useful if you have kids or not, maybe you can just pass it on. This book actually did get me thinking though about topics I never really touched. I thought it was pretty cool how Mick, associated chapter 8 with the 12 men, I never even thought of how that ties in with the book. With some changes there are risks and some people are more easier to change than others. Like this stubborn jury member didn't change his mind for anything, not for plausible evidence they were assuming happened or how the witnesses lies, he was stuck in his stubborn racist ways, until he thought deep down how he pushed his son away and it some how affected him to change his vote.it was a pretty good movie. Even though the book was a good read so far. It's so hard juggling work with other classes as well. During midterm time teachers like to cram stuff in last minute. I like how the book also talks about other aspects of your life like friendships, relationships, and etc. I love the mental aspect though because it talks about how other people interpret your words and actions so now you have to watch how you express things or you'll give someone the wrong idea. Overall feelings:

Discomfort is a common feeling for I.

Well I did something out of the ordinary today, my group volunteered to go second. Now this is a big deal for me because I loathe presenting, like seriously its pointless. What else could I possibly say that you can't read on my paper!!!! Plus I don't do we'll in front of crowds of people. I also have presenting because it's nerve wrecking, I do stupid things and do horrible 99% of the time. I'm a pessimistic, I can believe these things. Anyway going second had pushed me out of my comfort zone because I'm usually last or just keep trying to talk my way out of it. What I also did, a while ago was give a suggestion. I'm a SGA member for the current time because soon I will have to work and have no time for it. But anyways I have a suggestion to the president, and she loved it! I thought it would go terrible and she'd be confused or hate my idea but she didn't. Getting out of my crabby shell (get it? Crabby? Because I'm a Cancer) will be a little easier now, but it sucks that once I start to warm up to people it usually is the next semester when I don't see any of the same kids/ teachers anymore. Transitioning to this fast paced environment is kind of hard when the days go by really fast. Hopefully some of my professors will still help me throughout the years, but I doubt they would even remember me. At college, professors see all different kids each semester, it's hard to keep track of just one kid from that one class that always needed a little extra help. With high school, teachers have the same kids for an entire year so of course it is easier to recognize them and create a bond with particular students.

HOLE IN NONE -__-

This Friday and Saturday that is currently passing as I type, Marissa and I had went on a "Friday Free For All" and explored a bit of downtown. Friday free for all included, a haunted house, go karting and mini golf. First we went to go kart and all was well until I got SOMETHING in my eye, it was like a piece off the stupid track or something it was so irritating and horrible! I even cried and it didn't come out!! I believe it's still there, I just can't feel it as much. :( But besides that down turn, we next went to the Haunted House! I almost dragged Marissa a couple of times because she wasn't running like at all, Just clinging for dear life to me while zombified people were chasing us with chainsaws,screaming and nurses were asking to donate our blood!!! It really wasn't that scary cause I was kind of expecting that. I heard the trail of terror is scarier.

 Then after that little fun adventure we next went to order our food, we were number 81 and they were on 41, we certainly were unlucky that night. Lastly we tried mini golf, it was my first time and since my rage couldn't be held in, I ended up angrily quitting and possibly damaged a tree, so golf defintely is not for me since I have too much strength. Moving on to Saturday, Marissa and I decided to explore downtown. Ended up going to a couple of galleries,  even though art is the least of my interest, I did see a couple of interesting things in the Asian art, category and the cute British gift shop.We visited an organic store and some restaurants, even a tattoo parlor.

 and I made Marissa try something new. :D

Interesting.

Yesterday in class we were discussing the concepts of a fixed mindset and a growth mindset. I don't agree with fixed mindset being the bad side in this argument. I'm pretty sure there are people that have gotten far with what they already know. Having a fixed mindset is being confident in the knowledge you already have and not needing to expand. I'm content with everything because I'm pretty lazy, my satisfactory is at least a C or higher. I'm probably pretty stubborn at times because I hate when things get complicated when I'm just grasping on what we just learned! So I'd rather stay in my comfort zone, and get good grades rather than always wanting to go deeper into learning. Learning is what we have to do, to get far that is, But why not use what you already got and you'd probably be half way there already. So far this book is fairly interested because I never even though there was names of the concepts of thinking we have. Sure there's pessimism and optimistic but I haven't heard of a fixed mindset or a growth one, and I took psychology. Everyone can't be defined by a word though because some people believe they are a combination of the both, some weird nonexistent middle ground. There is a possibility that it is kind of a mix because some people can have a fixed mindset on certain topics and a growth one on others. For example, I have a fixed mindset for Math. My worst subject, even though people say I'm kind of good at it. I give up rather easily when it comes to math because it is so confusing and what is the point of math? Will it help me solve the final equation that will determine how to survive when the world ends?!?! NO. Well that was rather tangent. Anyways,This book will hopefully let me be more insightful.

Disturbing the peace.

With this project, I got just a little bit out of my shell more, I realized that some people are really nice and don't mind you asking them things. My main question was: Would you rather commute or live on campus and what are the pros and cons of your answer. . So yep. This video actually turned out better than I expected, i tried to do something weird at the end so the video wouldn't be so serious. Everyday I did something for this video, rather it was thinking about it, making rough drafts of the video or just how I'd would get it done. For me to be a procrastinator, I knew I couldn't procrastinate on this, I can't just pull a 5 min video out of thin air, it takes, time, precision, and courage. Luckily my friends were able to help me out since sometimes I live under a rock when it comes to technology, I never really made a actual whole video. ~I tried not to be biased, Hopefully that worked and hopefully this video doesn't come off as sexist because I only recorded girls....Oh well :) What I learned is that Commuting rules! and Resident's drool, most times.